loner

2009-09-13T12:26:00.002+08:00

hi...back to blog...been real busy...preparing for EX Wallaby...haish...damn tired man... gonna go on standby soon le... think i coming sat and nxt sat also will be doing guard duty le..haha..bo bian lehs...need to save money ma...so stay in camp do duty lo..haha...

ystd watched gamer with lim daven and faizal...ok movie onli..haha..the battle scenes are all so fast...u dun realli see anything at all lo..haha...btw..finally gave faizal his bdae present after so long... M Frame permisson hybrid..haha...its gd...realli...he says he like it alot..haha

bro enlisted le...suppose to send him off on fri de...but haish...OC dun let me go off...shit man..like as if one man not ard...he cant get his stuff done right...haish...sort of feel bad for my bro liddat...

anyway heard the new enlistees get their new lbv liao...good luck to them man..haha...

anyway ciaoz! dats all for today...today need to book in lo..sianed..haha

2009-08-10T02:19:00.004+08:00

Harlow peeps... Very long nvr blog me..now I using my iPod touch to blog..trying to type properly which is actually quite easy once u gt used 2 it..haha..anyway life been so so so far ..but realli been busy in 42sar..we hab been having live firing after live firings..on top of day I gotta cope wif standby duties..sorry can't go into details here as it is national security.. Haha.. dun wan end going to jail jus cus I blogged ya ..haha..damn more live firings this week agn..weekend burned yet agn..dunno why the commanders luv weekend live firings..

Missing kayaking like siao recently..dunno why..lim faster!let's go expedition after nxt week..after my standbys.haha

Catching gi joe later in the afternoon with the animal friens n daven..so guess I better sleep me den..
Nites everybody!! Ciaoz!

2009-06-14T09:26:00.002+08:00

IT BEEN SO LONG....

alot of things happen...some sad some good...faizal and chin woo enlist liao...clarence this coming week also enlisting...so i guess most of the grp are now sort of like divided up and busy wif their own stuff already =(..

ystd went Kbox buffet with lim and fennie...it was fun..haha...wa when we enter they dian alot of jaychou song den ask me sing all lo..SIAO..lim said cus it was a guy's song so i mus sing...LOLX..budden as usual la my singing cannot compare with lim de la..her voice damn power de..haha..

and best thing of all..i lost my hp..sian diao lo..jus bought like 6months ago? tsk... 8.1mp camera lehs..sian diao...lost in skl cus i left it to charge at the classroom den i went down NCC room...den come up ppl stole it liao..sian diao right...owell nobody to blame but me myself and i..fuck me!

so after camp i rushed down tmft to get my mum's IC so dat can get replacement sim..parked my van at marina sq den took train to PS...ask me why liddat leh..cus its troublesome to enter town go PS den back to MS ma..cus i meeting lim they all at MS...so jus park there lo.haha...den bought vitamins from GNC...bout my itouch condom after so LONG...and bought jie's prezzie...see ur laopa so nice..buy so many things le still buy urs..haha...

anyway thats the end of my post so...ciaoz..

PS: i still love u...always did and always will...and i have always been here so look me up if u wan...and dun leave me and ignore me kaes..=) let us see the future together=) song on my blog is for u ger..

2009-05-09T10:12:00.004+08:00

long since my last update...been realli busy and sian to blog also...haha

anyway ystd celebrated lendl's birthday at dbl 0 haha...eh..i gave my first clubbing exp to u leh...haha..seriously...went in 11plus..we dance all the way till 3am sia...with trip in btw to the bar nxt door to cool off and also to rest our ears...haha...drink so so la...didnt get drunk..haha..after dat hungry so went eat bak kut teh lo...haha...

anyway mon is a off day...so dunno wad to do also dis long weekend..haha...

there is this ger...jus got to knw her...chatting to her was fun..but i dunno her dat well yet...i wanna take this slow...i dun wanna screw up like i always do...i wanna be different...can i? i dunno...

this song damn nice...stop the music on my blog(left corner bottom) and play it ba...

Cry on my shoulder by various artist

Cry On My Shoulder - Superstar

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

Chorus:

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

Repeat chorus

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

OH YA!!!! i got my new uniform liao...ok la..qute cooling..haha..budden still UGLY SHIT!! haha...

2009-04-10T14:43:00.003+08:00

when its over and i look back.....it was worth it...thx for the memories..=)

2009-03-15T19:30:00.003+08:00

i jus love this song...its true...

stop the music on my side bar and play this link..

Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Cailat

to yvonne=)wif lotsa love=)

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I hear your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I put a flower in your hair
And though the breeze is through trees ???
Move so pretty you're all I see
Let the world keep spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
share with you!
Over...

owell book in le...my eyes are still red...and there is chemical defense trg for mon and tues...wonder if it will affect my eye...jeez...oh bother oh bother...bought bought ATI radeon HD4850 graphics budden my power supply doesnt support..meaning..i will hav to go simlim nxt week to get another one..sianed!....anyway dats all for today..bookin in le..

YVONNE LIM!!! rmbr our date nxt sat ok..haha...

2009-02-22T19:46:00.002+08:00

harlow..back to blog...nvr blog for 2 weeks le...passed in a flash...

lets see...ystd went for xinle 21st party...too bad she cant make it for mine..=(( anyway she said the present will be there..haha...went for a movie after dat in town...i drove the peeps there...2.10am slumdog millionaire...nice show..haha...damn shack..drove back and reach home bout 5++ haha..sleep till noon today woke up chill abit and relax...and now its time to book in agn..sian la..faster get this over and done wif..nxt week will be my party le...hope it will be good...haha

ciaoz..and to all those invited...cya there guys..haha..

2009-02-08T02:49:00.004+08:00

ok its almost 3am in the morning and i am not slping yet...SHEESH...i should be resting cus i am bookin in soon...but guess i aint sleeping yet..haha...

ystd at night went for supper wif maine and kaien...LEE JIE PANGSEH!!haha...we went dou feng also..haha...toked alot and caught up with one another..haha...

tday whole day slack at home lo...rest...den evening went botak jones woodlands for dinner...den go NTUC to buy groceries...outside in 2 weeks...need can food ar..haha..spam, gui ling gao, cocktail fruits, i bought mackarel(sp) in teriyaki sauce...its ayam brand de...should be quite nice bah..haha...den stock up on sweets and milk tea for my cupboard...bought toilet paper and wet wipes..jeez...NS life so expensive sia..haha...

den home le went cut hair at mrt there...den went wif parents go the tibet fa hui going on at admiralty mrt de field dere...spennd about half an hr walking inside...thru the exhibits and so on..lighted a candle for blessing..

den went home awhile le jiu drove my father's van go meet lim le...went for supper den went yishun dam dere to chill..tok cock for sometime b4 jk come...den we chatted awhile jiu left le..send lim home den home myself..and here i am..haha..dats all la..book in tonight..sianed..haha

posting some old pics and new pics...mostly are taken wif my new phone..SE C905..haha
Pics taken @ the dam tonight:

the view

me and lim!!haha=)

CNY09 6K'00 @ my hse:
gambling!

grp photo...

me and junhao

debbie xinle me carina

me and carina

2009-01-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

harlow...nian chu3 and 5th day of block leave enjoying myself so far...my aunt went back aussie le...will be 2years b4 i see my cuzzies agn cus they wan to stay dere for 2 years to qualify for aussie citizenship..haha...miss dem i will...haha

anyway first 2 days of cny was spend visting jus 3houses...namely my 2ndgrand aunt hse..dere basically met most of my father side de relatives le...den after dat..is my shifu's temple...who is also my da yi la...she became a nun ma..haha..go there pray and ask for blessing lo..den qiu qian also..ask ying yuan...it says...wait! see carefully..take my time..lolx...well dats basically wad it meant la..haha..
den ystd ar..went my 2yi hse for steamboat agn...lolx...den after dat jiu go home le...see my aunt pack den i drove her lagguage down to the airport while my dad drove the other van bring my cousin and my aunt and de rest of my own family down lo..first time leh my father let me drive his company van alone..lolx..shows he trust me quite abit sia..haha...
so today...jk jc daven fennie lim faizal chin woo darren and jayson came my hse to gamble..at first lost alot...but in the end all earn back lehs..haha plus some extra..so not bad la..haha...

here is the pic of my family..

2009-01-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

harlow!! first of all

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha

ystd went out with jk, jayson, jc, chang, daven and the CVSS cadets...had fun..went for lunch at Changing Appitiate(SP)den watched "YES MAN" AGNNNN haha...but nice show ma...we walked alot places sia..went suntec to play arcade den back to fyer to watch the fireworks..took lots of pics...will post them at a later date..once i have the mood to load them on photobucket...bt first..need to get them from cecil's facebook acc..-.-" cus i not the photographer for de day...LOLX

right..dats bout all...today wake up go shuang ling shi to pray den went ikea for lunch and to buy my new work chair...and curtain..den met pq lim and faizal for sake...ya...tml maybe watching australia with dem...see first lor..ya..

end of post!! haha

BYE!!

2008-12-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

harlow...here for a small post b4 i book in to camp agn..tml got platoon prof test...wish me luck!! i dun wan samula la...can die de lehs..haha

anyway...to u knw who this one for u!!
enjoy!!
stop the music on my blog at the side and
click the link below to play the song

林俊杰、蔡卓妍- 小酒窝

我还在寻找一个依靠
和一个拥抱谁替我祈祷
替我烦恼为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了无聊变得有话聊有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好我永远爱你到老
WO~~~小酒窝常见到迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好我永远爱你到老

2008-12-08T19:40:00.003+08:00

addicted to this sound cus of u..

so here it is...dedicated to u babe...

babe when u hear this pls off the playlist at the side of my blog and play the link in this post..=)

3Doors Down - Here Without You

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and
I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it's only you and me

I jus hope u would give me a chance agn...

realli realli realli wanna be with u=D

2008-12-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

hihi....back to blog le...haha..

lets jus say fri was damn pissed with the new sgts...
all of a sudden become damn asshole sia...

den area cleaning expect us to be 100% clean one..including the fans...its like...wtf~
PS already say the fans are cleaned once a month...no need weekly...crazy shit la... 3 stripes nia...big fuck mehs...somemore all so young go out can be our little bro liao...watch out sia..later ur outside camp kena hantam lo...

anyway...lets see...sat..haha..went and exchange my spoilt graphics card for a new one...sort of down graded alil budden nvm la..one for one exchange ma..and also nxt IT fair i getting new card liao..so..its ok..haha...den went cut hair...like the hair now...can say is long but also its still short..i dunno la...haha...den met angel to go town..sia la..she wear dress sia..pretty shocking man..quite pretty too...eh...commending u lehs...happy not??lolx... anyway...went doby ghaut..say daryl and yong ping..they going bens and jerry feast...it was raining sia..den its like we cant go katong...cus angel wanted to get nonya kueh...so we went PS walk walk...rained stopped...we bussed down to katong and got nonya kueh...have to say the ondeh ondeh(sp) damn nice sia...den we bussed back to orchard..walk to far east to getting smth for her sis...den we walk ard there lo..very long nvr walk far east already sia..damn long...walk with her to look at all the girly stuffs..lolx...den it was back to yishun...for dinner...anyway..after dat...i went back to PS again to meet the gang for dinner AGN..haha...i didnt eat much also la..haha...eat finish liao we went to admiralty mac for drinks..meet daven...tok cock some and went our way..for me..LUCKY sia..onli 10mins walk home..haha...

sun..nth much...spend time at home watch finish the unit and den play red alert3 like chee nam say..the last rising sun mission damn hard man..cant complete lo...ya den evening went for wedding dinner..haha...

well mon..i dunno cant say much...it jus passed for 38mins....

oh ya..did i mention..now i am STILL waiting for the air force to call me up for the interview..i hope they chop chop...i wanna get out of army man..and start life proper...the way i believe it should...fast faster fastest...COME ON!!=X

bookin later 9.30pm...oh god...so fast sia..haish..platoon prof test coming up!!
13dec going out with animal friens...celebrate 4 birthdays...
20 21 dec got sea gathering...
24 decx'mas book out
25dec bookin=((
26dec..AI platoon live firing=((
27dec- 4 jan block leave!!x))

2008-11-30T18:46:00.004+08:00

hi!!

its been a long long while since i last posted...a month plus to be exact...in this time alot of things happened=))

first of all
i passed ippt with a silver...=)happy days i mus say...
nxt...i pop trade course and i am a armour warrior=))
third...i filled up my application form and is waiting for the interview for my nxt step in life...namely the airforce... as a senior tech..haha...

so the sec4s finished their Os and may they all get good results...
ystd went it fair...didnt get much...help my bro buy his external hardisk...nice of me right...of course la..hahaa...and best of all i was burning a fever too...38.5 degrees

went see the doc today...fever was still there...he gave me 2 days MC...so i will be rotting at home for tml and tues...while my platoon is out there doing platoon trg...somehow feel bad dat i aint there...cus as the 1st M203 there...i am suppose to be breaching..haha..so ya...

anyway...here are the photos from trade course...of course we were allowed to bring in the camera to take pic...so i took some...enjoy=)

me and dad

me and my second wife=) SAR21 K65

my mum meeting her daughter-in-law my SAR21M203

My first wife the SAR21M203..brand new=))

BX2 comin in for the parade
a line of 'em BX2 and BX40/50

Kaffir coy all formed up=) see me??

the guy explaining to my dad how to shoot a SAR21=)

he is shooting..btw he got full score for it=)

me and dad on the ramp of a BX40/50

i am trained in this too the CIS 0.50 HMG=)

explainin the weapons of the BX40/50

me in the cupola which house the CIS 40mmAGL and CIS .50HMG=)

2008-10-27T18:43:00.002+08:00

lets see...its deepavali today...and all three days of the weekend i am out..i am tired i am shacked and i got guard duty tml..lolx...lazy to explain wad i did over the weekends..basically...went out and have fun bah...haha...anyway..dats all..ciaoz...

bookin in tonight=((

2008-10-20T17:22:00.002+08:00

harlow!! today attend C la..so nvr go back camp yesterday..ya...went ubin in the morning for recce with my juniors...came back not feeling very well...so went see doc...turns out got a slight fever..mus be the cough and flu and sore throat that made it altogether...feel like my throat infection is coming back...argh!!
anyway..here are the photos..let them do the toking..
got to say something...
if there is a singapore funniest video and we took the video of justin doing wad he did on ubin...we would have won...

but thank god..he made it thru with jus scratches and nth else..haha...
ps: i was the medic..lolx

u can see me in the back...think i looking thru my medic kit bah...JUSTIN the stunt man who turn 360 degrees into the swamp when he lost control of his bike..lolx

welcome to pulau ubin!=)

2008-10-12T15:24:00.005+08:00

hi...later bookin in liao..haha

sian last week learn GPMG
tml dreading the theory test on 0.50 HMG and 40MM AGL...
alot of theory lehs...tsk...how to learn sia...all the numbers...OMG

thats all la...got my black beret le..haha...
ystd went out go find presents for friens...
den chill at hooters with lim and fennie...ya...
saw HK actors filming...they were intro-ing the clinic i think..haha took some snapshots....

today nth much leh...slack whole day bah..haha
ok la...dats all le..bye!!

the bottom one took me thru lots of memories from 2001 to 2008..and now its time to don the new one...black one...for the nxt 2 years maybe? once armour always armour...dats wad they say

the 2 hk stars we caught at clarke quay

curly fries!! at hooters

hooty-fruitty...its nice!!very nice

2008-10-03T21:22:00.001+08:00

harlow...jus book out from camp=))

haha

this week ar...hmm..lets see...cant say much...alot is confidential...

but all i can say...i am train in 3 weapon system now...
1.M203
2.CIS 0.50inch HMG
3.CIS 40mm AGL

the last 2 are killers man...jus trying to pass the technical handling test can cause injuries all over...but owell...at least now i can gun on the bionix 40/50=)))haha

thats all...tml maybe going indonesian riverside resturant for dinner...haha..ciaoz!!

2008-09-27T10:19:00.002+08:00

harlow!! first book out from sungei gedong camp..

i am a armour trooper in 42SAR!!haha
Bionix 2 lehs!

i am the section first m203 so i get new SAR21 FITTED wif the M203 grenade launcher...
ystd went live range...
M203 damn cool la..can actualli see the rounds leave the launcher and fly towards the target den "BOOM"..haha...COOL!!haha

ok dat concludes my post...ciaoz

THUNDER THROUGH ALL!! KAFFIR!!

2008-09-17T20:36:00.003+08:00

harlow..
first of all...i know very long nvr blog le...

reason:
1.come back from camp..tired
2.scared blog wrong thing kena charge

haha

anyway...POP LO!!

i knw la...PTE Chan Siang Long Eugene

nth much nia...PRIVATE onli..haha..

anyway been having block leave...catching up with friens...partied alot...out alot...haha
about a 30cm by 50cm of my rm is filled with my stuff from camp...omg...its serious alot..haha...cus its stacked about half a metre high...

anyway....heres a photo...which is definitely not restricted..

a pic of wad i hope to be...haha

cool right...eveyrthing is my own except for the LBV(SAF issue) and the NO.4(NCC issue)..haha..
holding is the M4SOPMOD with red dot sight, forehand grip, infrared laser and tactical light=)) ZENG-ed it myself...nice!haha

2008-07-26T19:20:00.002+08:00

harlow guys!

i m back after a 2 weeks confinement..

first on the agenda...

i cleared field camp!
haha...yay!

ok...it was tough...it was demanding...yet it was fun!
operating as a platoon was quite hard as first...platoon sergeant and platoon commander pushed us hard..we learned...haha..

we did grp movement too=)learn to operate in group of 3safter we were proficiently...our ps let us do it at section level..damn fun la...immediate assualt at section level..haha...

oh..i burnt about 300blanks in field camp...hell lots of shot..haha...

shell scrape..shitty la...dig myself..but one of the first 2 in the platoon to finish first...so we got to book out early...yay!haha...
spend thurs night in the scrape...it was raining...quite miserable night..no shelter over me jus my goretex over my cold long no.4 and my rifle..haish...

fri...BIC...my ear plug dropped out halfway...so now my ears are a bit hard on hearing...during to the loud GPMG..haha..

over all...looking back...i dun wanna go thru it agn...but i love it all the same..haha..fond memories...esp the letters from home part...

MISSED alot of people sia during field camp...but missed home the most...makes u appreciate alot of things...

anyway...dinner time...ciaoz!

2008-07-13T14:00:00.002+08:00

harlow...back to blog..since today being a sunday...i am so free....lets see...nxt weekend no book out le...cus nxt week is field camp le...so sian..camo cream mus be on at all time except during the time when u are sleepiing...-.- PIMPLE OUTBREAK la..sian...

anyway
i got my SAR21 le...
pass my technical handling already too...

so i am qualified to fire it already...

jus pray hard hard no misfire...or else 7 days sol...sian de lorhs...haish...

anyway got a webby to download psp games so downloading some games dat i have been wishing to played for sometime...and update my psp too...

too bad lim...ur battery level too low..or else i can update for ur psp also..haha...nxt time bah..haha

wa...miss maine and jie sia...u 2! catch up soon ok...go out one day soon...haha

my friens...my friens....i miss time with them when i am in NS...dats the onli problem..haha..not enuff time outside la..haha..stupid officers..everytime make us book out on sat...dun let us book out on fri...fri la..den ur can have more time outside also wad...tsk...

angel took this pic...in honour of me...when she went to the zoo...-.- thanks ar "angel"...wad a nice seal/walrus...haha

2008-06-27T22:23:00.001+08:00

ok i am back after so long of inactivitey...reason being

serving the nation la...
now in
BMTC1 APACHE company
PLATOON 4
SECTION 3
BED2..

haha
jus a lame update...busy busy..and tired too..haha...so dats about all...
BB!!

oh ya...

PS: JENESTA I HATE U!!!

2008-06-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

i guess its jus impossible to think that we will be who were use to be 2 years ago...sorry..i tried..i failed...i am jus useless...sorry...

2008-06-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

back to blog..

nth to happy to say about today...

today..我的宝贝小妹不高兴了
i think its my fault too...

sorry i made u angry all the time...
and everytime i made u angry..we sort of push each other further apart...
its making me sad and helpless everytime i see it happen...

if i dun make u angry all the time...perhaps..we wont be so distant as we are now..and perhaps u would have told me wads going on in ur mind...the thing dats killing u slowly inside...i can see it..but i dunno wads it..haish...it hurting mei..but i cant do a single thing to help it...

all i can do now is being there quietly..hopefully it will make u feel better...mus faster cheer up k...get better...u got O lvl to worry about...

2 days to enlistment..and its making worried...cus i go in..i cant be there for her le...dunno when she sad when she happy...

maine..mus cheer up k..be happy...=)pls smile more and mean it...

anyway...

dats for all today...blog finish le..
hey..today's post onli talking about one person lorhs...now u see how important u are to me?

这感觉以经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉
我没给

i am sorry!

smile like this=)

2008-05-30T22:39:00.002+08:00

hi guys...back from PHS AB camp 2008...first time camp so slack..haha..dunno why lehs..haha..ya

and btw i grad le...on tues...when take my diploma cert liao..haha

this are the pics...

thanks are syahir..for taking the photos..haha

ya..

and

its 6 days to enlistment...
was realli sadded when i hear from lim dat she couldnt make it for my enlistment anymore..
but suan le..she busy ma..shant blame her..ya...

anyway...jus now listening to xiang ting de hua by shi xin hui...damn saddenning...jus emo shit that for awhile...and i teared...damn it...

asking god-"dear god...why u make me so emo hearted? why do u do dat?"

2008-05-26T01:16:00.002+08:00

harlow...ystd was a happy day..haha...

lets see...woke up 1plus...straight away sms maine see she wake up liao not...she was...so i went down to pass her my spare phone...cus she sent hers for repair...abit guilty...cus i told her to get that de...and get liao got problem..lol...den pass her le...wanted meet pri skl friens go swimming de...in the end...raining so nvr le lorhs...ya...so i went cwp to get back my ATM card...den maine told me...she dun have charger cus the phone she sent for repair..she sent everything including the box also...so i went back admiralty to take the charger and den went to her house AGAIN...along the way still buy fries and bubble tea lorhs...see so nice de kor..where to find right..haha...in the end...she say she bathing..so waited outside her hse till she done...in the end..she bath finish le forget about me..jus sat there watch video on her lappy...TSK...can even miss the sms de lorhs..haha...

so ya...after she finally rmbred...she open the door..lolx...went in...sat down and watched video with her...the niu zai smth smth de...HEBE de ou xiang zhu lehs...she damn pretty lorhs...

oh yah btw...she was suppose to be studying..haha...in the end is sit there watch finish le den study...lolx...so i was fixing her comp for her...uninstalled all the expire anti virus...got her a new one...and help to clear her comp abit...haha...

so ya...after dat went with parents go 2 yi house there for dinner...nice..come back chatt on msn and watch video lorhs...kaien intro me the ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni...quite nice la..haha

so here are some random photos from today and other days...

this is drawn by chun fu...depicts ME...scolding part C a particular cadet during interview...haha
NICE

took this pic after faizal's birthday celebration..was cycling home...=)

the photo failed...but in the process it created a artistic impression=)

the pretty and mature side of lee jie=)

now the candid...she didnt even know the existance of this picture..haha
dats after she finish the show and decided to study...haha...how "studious"
lolx...

she is so gonna kill me after this..hha

ok bye guys

2008-05-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

right...today's gonna be a shitty post...

aint in a realli good mood....
jus feeling quite shitty right

first of all sorry to charmaine..
said those things dat hurt u ystd..
realli regret it..

looking back on life...friens come and some go..like she said...but its the one who stay dat makes the difference...well..those who stayed...are some of my pri skl friens...seriously...

and its like...among the three of us(meaning the guys)..wad we share in common is..somehow...we dun go out with our friens from sec skl life and tetiary skl life...sure a gathering once in awhile perhaps...but...other den dat...nth...so now...they are "serving the nation"..we aint meeting up much cause they got their things to do...den when i look at myself...i realize one thing...i aint got realli much to turn to..the rest of them...the ones dat i go out with and have fun..they are busy too...O lvls, Polys, ITE, JCs...i cant blame them for not being there to talk with me...cus..its not wrong that they are busy with their studies...so i jus contend myself with jus plain entertaining myself..do take not peeps...i aint saying this to blame u guys or to make urself feel guilty...neither am i trying to get ur pity...i jus wan to say it out...cause it doesnt feel right staying in my heart unsaid...i knw most of u guys dun even visit my blog...its jus a dead place here for me to vent myself...to note down my memories...

Jingyi, i jus wanna say a super late sorry to u...after 2 long years..sorry i sort of neglected u after i met charmaine....know u mus have felt very hurt...cus someone told me about it...but i jus didnt have the courage to tok to u about it...i am truly sorry and i should have took more notice...jus wanna knw dat u cheered me up alot of times when i felt super low and dat all the long talks dat we had online and thru sms...it made me feel alot better...

Charmaine, sorry once again...to have said so many things that have cause u hurt..to have made u cried on some occasions.. i knw i am one who nvr talks things without it going through my brain...also i am sorry dat i jus sort of left u there on ur own...after ur relationship with him...i should have been there.u should knw wad i mean...ya...to me..u like a damn fine lady...u jus cheer me up whenever i see u..it doesnt take words...the smile u give is always enuff...u always say u throw me attitudes...well i do throw u attitudes as well...but..we always get over it dont we..rmbr i always be there to give that listening ear or to do anything for u if u need me..

to this another girl dat i knw i cant name here...sorry for all the hurt that i gave u and all the broken promises...i know i didnt treat u as well as u should be treated....i tried but i didnt tried hard enough...i didnt cherish u for who u are and always expect too much from u when i am not doing good enough for myself...but i jus wanna let u knw..no matter wad the future..u made a deep impact in my life and dat..i will nvr forget u...no matter where i go or wad i do...friens i knw i cannot be with u anymore due to all the hurt i have given u through all this times...its a regret i will live with in my life to serve as a reminder of the person i am...and i am trying to change out of...

and to all my friens whom i nvr name here...its been great knowing ur and the knowledge dat we continue to be friens will live with me...and thankyou all alot for having been part of my life...all the laughters...occasional tears and arguments..all the suaning..even though it hurts...i also suan u guys...so i cant say ur cannot suan me or give ur attitude=)

2008-05-24T04:07:00.002+08:00

oh ok...its so shitty now...COH and BF2 both keeping kicking me from servers causing i have 2 high a PING for them...shit man...wads the point of buying orginal when i cant play online...

FCUK LA!!!

ok...feelin quite pissed...haha...

so now... here to blog lorhsits 24may...i failed my tp ystd thanks to a fcuking taxi driver...shit u man.... ya.. and its 13 days to enlistment...prepared? maybe...i got my specs ready liao...haha...and maybe getting junhao to get me more grey singlets...according to him 2 aint gonna be enuff if i sweat alot..so listening to the pros to get more..haha=)

decided to take pic of my room...like gonna miss it man..haish..the bed the xbox and the comp...haha

the view from my window

my desk

my bed!=)

my desk top and xbox360

gonna be missin them from tekong..haha

2008-05-20T22:04:00.003+08:00

ok so today went out with lee jie(nuer), charmaine(mei), jingyi(mei)

hehe
had a good time...
been so long since we 4 went out together...
jus had a simple dinner at KFC in northpoint then after that jus went out walk walk lorhs...we went to the NP beside the HDB flats there take picture...lolx...so wierd lorhs..like seated there at the stone chairs..den we taking pictures as other people walk by..haha..jing yi left 8plus but the rest of us jus sat there till 9pm...crapping and taking somemore photos...haha
so here are the photos...

oh ya...b4 dat i went and watch movie with jie lorhs...speed racer...like korkor bring his sister go watch movie like dat...lolx..so lame..haha

like wad lee jie say...i miss the days when the 4 of us mugged together 2 years ago..lets see..leejie was pri 6 maine and jingyi sec2 den i was poly year2 so it was like three diff kind of books on the table and all studying..den i there study plus teach abit here and there...lolx...

the three girls

group photo..

my 2 meis

them again

this one artistic right..reflections on the table lehs...

four of us again

me and jinyi=)

jing yi with jie=)

them again

and again..lolx

me and maine=) finally one with our face in it...

me and maine again=)

the 2ladies and 1 girl

laopa and nuer=)

me and jinyi=)

me and charmaine=)

and three of them again

realli...they left a deep impact in my life la...life with them around is nvr dull..
YES..i suan ur alot...budden..we SUAN each other also la...haha...

a pact...2years down the road...steamboat together...haha
i will be 22 maine and jingyi 18 and leejie 16..lolx...
like finally we can catch a nc16 show together...

2008-05-19T20:34:00.002+08:00

oh sheesh...wad a day...

so boring..

i cn almost rot the day away...ystd night played comp till about 4am this morning..haha...so i slept till bout 12plus today..haha..then play till now...like..no life...all computer liao..haha

dreading NS cus no computer to use for like 15days? then after that is 1week once?sian de lorhs..haha

playing company of heros...find brits easier to play compared to the krauts...cus its like...i dun understand german..haha

anyway...sian..cant seem to play american army...damn sian...realli...haish...

so now i waiting for my new graphics card to come..which is like...so looking forward to it..ya...hopefully he wont scam la...HOPEFULLY...haha

anyway dats all...ciaoz!

2008-05-17T13:11:00.003+08:00

its a sat...and i am sho sho sho sian...at home..haha...nth to do la...feeling not so happy...

haha...
anyway..ystd night when eatzi with the gang..cus faizal birthday ma...haha..den after that went mac sit and chat lorhs...lolx

walau ystd go CMPB 10mins nia can go liao...damn sian diao...den take the photo right...the person say my hair too spiky so made it flat...plus he comb for me the old fashion side parting..i was like..SIAN la...my 11B picture sure damn cuckoo one...lolx...should have jus cut armani and go man..tsk..wasted pic

so sian..this whole weekend nth to do la...how come weekends always like this de????
lolx...SIAN LA!!!!

2008-05-16T17:08:00.003+08:00

haha...suddenly decided to upload this...

as the US marines say

THIS IS MY RIFLE, THERE ARE MANY LIKE IT, BUT THIS ONE IS MINE!

2008-05-15T22:02:00.002+08:00

harlow!

first time blogging from my new computer..haha..excited that it finally came..budden sad that i wont get to enjoy it much since i will be going NS soon...however at least its one more thing to look forward to when i get back i guess..haha

anyway...today went driving lesson..finally cleared all my driving lessons so i can hopefully take TP early..haha..ya and i saw yvonne...i finished my lessons den she starts hers...

then now refreshing for tp dates...surprisingly got dates in JUNE de lehs...but earliest is 9JUNE sadly..haha...tml asking my bro to help me refresh the page at 10am to 11am..haha...according to my fav instructor...TP release dates cancelled the day before at that time...so trying my luck lorhs...ya..haha...

i wan get my LISCENE B4 BMT!!!!

ok...PLS PLS PLS...wish me luck..haha

ti gong bo bi la...pls...

guanying ma bao you...

yu huang da di kai en lehs...

jesus pls forgive me...

allah forgive my sins...

sorry i dunno hindu de...lolx...

ya...so pls all gods...let me have a date larhs...i have been good...u can ask santa...lolx

AND AND AND CMPB called ystd...they asking me to go down to deport road to have a photo taken of me to make 11B..so i have to go tml lorhs...so damn fking sian la...lolx...go all the way jus to take a photo...diao lame lorhs...ya...haha

so dats all for tonight...back to playing around with my comp...jus love it...except dat i got scam...its ATI radeon x1050 nia...128MB nia lorhs...shit u man...i emailed the guy le...if he no reply...den i call police and have him arrested...got his business ID and company name and add...he will DIE i tell ya...tsk...

IDIOT CHRIS..u watch out!

2008-05-14T23:33:00.001+08:00

i am getting my comp tml!! yay! haha....so excited...

budden...certain things happened today...and i shant say here...cus abit bu fang bian...and i feel dat on my part is something i jus overreact alittle...ya..

anyway..fri need go CMPB take photo...cus last time nvr take...den they need a photo of me to make my 11B...green IC lehs...lolx..okok lame

dats about all...ciaoz

2008-05-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

hey hey!! sian life! but ya...spend the whole week zenging my M-16.... now MY m16 got red dot sight and vertical grip and a flashlight..lolx..

so ya...today was spent early morning go teach sec3s IFC den after dat go home sleep...lolx...at night den meet them pass notes again...i compiled like SEA MODULE and LAND MODULE den plus drills de notes also give le larhs...lolx...see i so good right...lolx...jkjk

anyway..ya..dats for today...nth to say le...BYE!!haha

2008-05-02T23:08:00.003+08:00

HI GUYS...basically after rotting the whole day...i am here to blog le...haha...today i replayed the until ace combat 6: liberations of fire on my xbox360 again...jus that this time in hard mode and unlocked the CFA 44..haha..the aircraft damn cool man...can launch 12 guided multipurpose missle at one go...now i can engage both air and land targets at one go..damn shiok man...like see 12 planes go into flame infront of me at one go..haha...

my old plane F-15E strike eagle

running the gauntlet

nice sunset!!haha

the xbox me in the front seat..callsign garuda1

liftoff

afterburners

me in my new plane..

introducing the CFA-44

after i took out the heavy command cruiser AGAION.u can see my wingman infront.callsign garuda 2.

so ya...yesterday labour day so i got one day off to rest..haha...hey i not studying le ok..i am WORKING le..lolx...so ya...i slept in till 11plus...wake up..ate breakfast den watch TV till it was time to go meet the rest for pool...i went early to northpoint cus wanted to go cyberactive see XBOX games lehs...wanted to see wads new..haha...so ya...in the end..kena called to go eat dessert at the interchange dere...sia la...i walk over also sweat larhs...weather so hot...so in the end eat le..me jc jk fennie lim clar and shuman went OCC play pool lorhs..ya...played 3 hrs plus ba...den came back yishun eat LJS..den went starbucks there talk cock..lolx.we talk till starbucks close sia...den 10++ go home lorhs..so ya...today has already been describe as above..lolx..

then jus now 8plus went cycling to yishun cus meeting my dad at his frien's dunno who's funeral larhs...den in the end is at lim's hse downstairs nia..lol...so i sat there awhile sian liao..jiu left without my dad...since he driving...damn it...got chase by dogs jus now on the way back at woodlands ave12 den jus now at yishun park behind there also kena dog chase...wad suay day today sia...

dats all for today!! bye...

2008-04-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

ladies and gentlemen...

ur truly has got his dear PINK letter from CMPB ordering me to report for duty on the 5th of JUNE 2008 at 1pm to Basic Military Training Centre School 1. For those who dunno..basically its pulau tekong liao...

exchanging my PINK NRIC for a GREEN 11B and a pair of dogtags...ya..even though i wear one already but it aint standard issue so..wad the heck..

along with the letter came a piece of paper dat basically tells me wad(as in the equipments) i would get on the island.i shall be nice and share with u peeps.. there is basically 45items

1Pair of Combat Boots x2
1Pair of PT Shoes x1
AA battery Pen Torch x1
Alloy Water Cup x1
Bath Towel(Green) x2
Batter, NON rechargeable 1.5V "AA" SZ x4( i presume its for the pen torch?)
Belt x1
Black Gloves x1
Black Shorts x2
Camouflage Cap x1
Camouflage Paint(Black) x1
Camouflage Pain(Green) x 1
Camouflage Shirt x5 (thats NO.4 larh)
Camouflage Trousers x5
Digital Thermometer x1(scared SARS u see)
Ear Plug x1
E-mart User Guide x1(teach u how to shop ma)
Field Pack x1
Foot & Body Powder (Packet) x2
Foot & Body Powder Container x1(so giam..jus give me the container with powder inside jiu can liao...still mus have refill pack..think detergent ar)
Garters Elastic Cord x2
Green Water Bottle x2
Helmet x1
Helmet Camouflage Net x1
Insect Repellent x2( NOT ENOUGH!!)
Mess Tins x2
Note Book x1
Nylon Duffel Bag With Wheels x1
Padlock with 2 Keys x1
Pocket Knife x1
Polishing Cloth x1
PT Training Vest x2
Sewing Kit x1
Shirt Utility Grey x2
Shoe Brush x1
Shoe Polish x2(they expect us to use 2 cans to polish our boots nicely?)
Socks (Green) x5
Socks(white) x2
Stainless Steel Table Fork x1
Stainless Steel Table Spoon x1
Suspenders Individual Equipment x1(thats wad they call a SBO or LBV now?)
Swimming Trunks x1(according to "seniors" onli use one time in BMT)-.-
Toggle Rope x1
Toilet Roll x2
Toiletries Kit (toothpaste size M, Toothbrush, Shaver, Soap with container) x1

LADIES and GENTLEMEN dat will be a total of 73 pieces of individual equipment in total. that of course does not include my alarm clock, washing powder, basic toiletries, extra underwear, googles, watch, nail clippers, slippers. these i need to bring my own

and also i may wan to bring 6 or more clothes hangar, additional civies, additional black plastic specs and mobile phone(of course no camera) with extra batteries to chat with GF if i have one..lolx

shit man...how to fit in my locker like dat? lolx...i seriously dunno...

oh ya..still got my wife lehs...the M16S1..lolx

okok thats about all lorhs...bye for tonight..haha

2008-04-28T16:56:00.002+08:00

harlow back to blog...let see..over the weekend..

FRI:

Yvonne LIM's birthday..haha..so went downtown east sakura international resturant. so ya...had fun there...did some lame stuff...so after that didnt know wad to do..and decided to hit KBOX at kallang leisure mall..walau the place damn small lahs...the room...sucker...6 of us inside also no more place to sit liao..haha...

here are the pics:

zheng long and yvonne lim(seriously no one thought of having a pic wif her except him..lolx..maybe all drank too much)

duck is acting cool...but seriously...

two heck care plus one kiss face?peiqin...somebody not faithful to u lehs!!

all together now..haha

birthday girl herself..haha

so ya...we left around 2.30 liddat...me faizal and lim took cab home together...drop faizal at khatib den alighted at lim's hse...send her home before going down to hail another cab myself...

so ya...here is the scene..got there a cab with no passenger passed without stopping..i was like &%*$%#(

den waited for 5 mins its was like

den after another 5 mins

i was like sheesh...where are all the cabs...and den one showed up...haha

so got home mostly around 3.50..by this time is sat le everybody..

bathed and went to sleep for a pityful 2 hours before waking up to a brand new day...

so ya..SAT:

first day of dragonboat recreational instructor course..
first order of the day was theory with theory test...i kept dozing off..couldnt stand it..haha..so i took the test..it was ok larhs...mostly water safety stuff...the onli problem is its OPEN ENDED QNS..basically i had to write SENTENCES...been ages since i did that...and my writing is ultra wonderful..lolx..

so after lunch went out for practical lesson...my steering was not bad..budden instructional wise not so good...cus the coach say i not speaking loud enough...i was like -.-..okok...

so ya..after finish le jiu go bathe den i went orchard collect my phone from orchard...the rest didnt wan to come..so i diam jus go liao lorhs...ya...

SO ya SUN!!
practical test in the morning..think i did well...so should be a PASS!haha
afternoon went to PS for lunch den after dat walk to merdian there wanted to play pool de..but in the end...it was full..so i suggested going to orchid country club since it was also cheaper dere and the play is better..haha...so we went and played till around 7pm bah...den jing kai and fennie wanted eat laksa so we went blk 900++ there see them eat will clarence eat desert..den after me and lim went charmaine hse collect lim's present..i mean ya...long story...haha..
dats about all

OH YAH..i had relief teaching today morning but nth else le...now super sian...tml morning will relief again...so ya..BYE!!

2008-04-24T23:30:00.004+08:00

harlow...back to blog..haha...been busy the last couple of days and my brother com crashed AGAIN..so lend him my lappy to do his skl work.. so today finally can blog..lets see...today had lunch with mum at cable car centre at harbourfront today...chinese resturant having set meals of 9.80 per person..NETT!!! rice with meat and vegetable and soup and desert...quite worth it larh..haha..den after dat went down to wisma to service my W580I cus the button break liao larhs..
pls take note here..i was alone..msged a few people see if they are free not...but they aint so forget it..haha...den went borders to see books for awhile b4 meeting joel to collect my replacement lense for my oakley and another half jacket..got a new pair of lenses same colour but its different shape..my old one is XLJ ver...this one is the rounded bottom one..ya..haha

the one on top is XLJ bottom is the new one..damn i love my oakley!haha

so ya..after dat met yanling for dinner..had pastamania..my treat larhs..since long long nvr see her liao..den also i working ma...she is qiong shu shen..haha..had a nice chat so it was realli nice to see her..

so anyway dats all for today..ciaoz!

2008-04-21T14:48:00.002+08:00

harlow...so here are the pics...jus picked a few larhs...somehow...fennie took very little pics of me with my camera...-.- lorhs..

crapping on the rafted boats b4 setting off..

another shot of crapping

shuman super act cute!

act CUTE!

setting off le

sun rise!! NICE...always off sembawang

our fav boatmen haha!! lance colonel zhen long and general barry(haha)

assualt boat crew

the clouds are damn nice!

paddling!

the three boatcrew ladies

after a long day..time to take a bathe to clean up!!

so dats about all le..haha..first day at sea was typical larhs...budden second day got STORM lehs...lolx..so beached up at bottle tree village there...the gate was closed so i climbed in to borrow vinegar from the staff there...fyi the resturant is opened by my father's army buddy..haha

so ya..den got help from the coast guard there...they called the ambulance and picked up the three cadets who got stung by jellyfish...cause it was quite bad larhs..ya..

anyway dats about all...ciaoz..

2008-04-20T23:32:00.003+08:00

harlow..i am back from MKE le..ya..basically thats my last major HQ event for NCC le..ya..anyway took my camera along to take some pics for the event..and ya...i am happy and proud that all my sec3s got thru the MKE selection for AKE..haha...12 out of 12...damn proud of them...

heres the pic dat we took after we got back..due to the storm we were forced to beach up at sembawang beach and wait the storm out...dats why its DARK when we got back..haha

we were cold, we were exhausted, we were hungry..but we laughed and smiled cause all who started to cross the obstacles made it through together...

anyway dats about all...will post other pics another day...

ciaoz

2008-04-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

yay!!! i got my date for enlistment date le...like finally...ya...u wan know come ask me lorhs..haha...too excited to post anything le...so nights!!hahaha

2008-04-16T23:42:00.006+08:00

*edited*

ok ladies and gentlemen...here are the photos as promise, with compliments to ms tay fennie the photographer and mr tong jing kai for driving the boat(slacker nvr kayak)

first one...close up of me.NOTE the BRACSA 1 paddle i am holding?lolx..ferris wheel behind me lehs..and see the floating platform on the left hand side?haha

the ferris wheel from kallang basin...

from left: eugene jinchuan kumfai zhenlong yvonnelim shuman..nice view

a better view of the city.. i love this photo man...haha

2008-04-16T22:37:00.003+08:00

ok...i am super sadded cus the bottom of my cyclops lense is a BIT scratched...budden..ya nvr mind..from far see still can see...mus see close close den can...budden lim dropped hers at kallang..so sad for her..haha...

anyway...go bath first..will be back to post the pics later on...ciaoz!

2008-04-14T22:05:00.002+08:00

ok...so today morning had relief teaching..haha...den after dat come home eat lunch...wat tv den slept till 7++ had dinner...lolx..seriously..my life is dat simple can..

ya..so anyway go back SP...meet lim to help her with some stuffs...
and wed got kayaking trip to merlion with some clts...looking forward to it...wanna try out my new 2 GB memory card..hah...cam whoring on the water..haha..

okok...still waiting for the pics..haish...i wan it larh!!

2008-04-13T22:21:00.002+08:00

erm..lets see...i PASSED the dragonboat helsman level 1 course!! yes larhs!! haha...considering dat its my second time on a dragonboat...on sat...so after 2 days..finally larhs..haha..but now my back aching all over larhs...sit inside too long liao...haha...but its ok..haha

actuali nth much to blog larhs..thurs was spent relieving class den fri sat sun jiu shi dragon boat lorhs...

tml..sp start skl le..ya..pity them lorhs..haha...but i am done with it..haha...

ok larhs..short post today...erm..when i get the pics..i will upload them bah..first batch of NCC(SEA) dragonboat helmsmam...5 went 4 survived with the cert...glad i am one of them...congrats to yvonne kumfai and jing kai...fennie jiayou kaes..u can try again!haha

ok ciaoz!

2008-04-09T22:54:00.002+08:00

周杰伦:距离 (我不配)

这街上太拥挤太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪在还原那场雨

这笑容太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿又斑驳了几句

剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里

电影院的座椅隔遥远的距离

感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回

一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给

你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协

是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解

一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累

你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴

而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

这街上太拥挤太多人有秘密　

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪在还原那场雨　

这笑容太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿又斑驳了几句　

剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里

电影院的座椅隔遥远的距离　

感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回

一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给

你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协

是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解

一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累

你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴

而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

hooked onto this song...jus find it meaningful..ya...

anyway...today went down to USSTC for sea trg...quite ok larh...got to drive the dinghy..lolx...den ya...race btw phs and rss..PHS WON..haha...daven...see that not..haha...ok...relax larhs...friendly match nia ma..haha...

den erm...had dinner with the partCs after that lorhs..with chun fu..at yishun...after dat jiu go home lorhs..ya

today nth much to blog lehs..lolx..ciaoz

2008-04-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

okok..back to blog..lets see...erm...today relief 1 resiliance...notorious naughty class...they certainly live up to their name...lolx...i was nearly driven to the grave...in the end had to shout..lolx...budden that class is mix personality de lorhs..some damn noisy...some damn quiet..some damn smart some damn slow...lolx...den got one the moment see me jiu cry...say she wans her form teacher back...when i brought her to the office...the clerk was like telling me...she is normally liddat de...cries at every relieft teacher...lolx..in the end she keep complaining stomach pain so send her back home...sheesh...

den come how...watch TV whole night...FIRST TIME OK...dunno why...jus glued there while using laptop...very long nvr like dat liao...maybe cus i wanted to pei my mum bah...dunno also..haha

anyway...dats all for tonight...ANGEL DUN SAY I NVR BLOG LE OK..haha

bye!

2008-04-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

harlow!!! here to blog sehs!!lolx..ok auto high abit..haha

erm..fri ar...went down trg see see...den talked abit with angel and some other peeps...saw yx and yl they all...nice to see them after so long lorhs...ya..as friens..ya...den erm...after dat when eat with mr ng and some of the inter1s...had some fun...haha...nice talks...lolx...

lets see.. sat...meet jk fennie lim and faizal den we went kallang leisure mall...or smth liddat...haha...first time there larhs...den go watch untraceable...abit sian and disgusting larhs...spent 2 hours jus see a pyscho killing people on the net...-.-!!

den den...cus the show is late ma...so we went over to indoor stadium lorhs..haha...saw a few phs cadets...lolx...damn funny larhs...they were like.."eh? SIR!!" haha...den saw zheng long and jayson and some other sea clts..haha...

so anyway...went back for the movie..haha...den after dat ar...met the rest of the clts and jayson at kallang mrt...den train back to the north...lolx...amazing to see so many clts all living in the same area lorhs...from khatib to marsiling...got at least 20++ all from sea... have to admit we are a tight bunch...its always so much fun with them around...will miss them when i go NS sia...dun wanna live this family so soon...budden i knw i mus advance in life...cant be stuck there forever also ma..ya...people ask me why so old le still go ncc...but they dun understand...the people i knw from there are my second family lorhs...i now onli go back for my friens..and yes...i admit for my cadets...so ya...dats all lorhs...

anyway had dinner at yishun np mac with fennie lim and jk..quite late bah...we talked from 9++ to 11++ lehs..haha..den after dat walked lim home den i go take cab home myself le...hah..lazy walk larhs...and its so close to home liao...jus cab lorhs...take train so long...

den today ar...woke up at 10pm due to sounds from the kitchen, my mum got a cheena frien to come over and make dumplings...lolx..den she brought her children along..so it was like quite noisy larhs...budden nvm larhs...alarm clock lorhs..haha..wa...i have to say larhs...the noodle and kwayteo my mum brought from the mrt station there is damn SALTY larhs..one mouth and i dun wan eat liao...they like soya sauce free one sia..haha...so ya...met lim for driving...sian sia...lose all my touch liao...lane changing i paniced..lolx..but the rest is OK!.haha..went yishun had long john after dat..and went home le lorhs..ya...then it rained...so i fell asleep while reading...sleep until 9 plus seh..lolx..woke up and saw channel U have death note so watched lorhs...drank coconut drink...den till now haven eat dinner seh..maybe not eating bah..haha...

guess dats all..so NITES and CIAOZ!!

loving u...but if can u show me a sign?? cus i will wait u knw...

2008-04-03T22:06:00.002+08:00

back home liao...ya...met jk faizal and clarence for pool, darren joined us for awhile b4 going work...quite cheap lehs...play quite long each person onli paid 2.10..lolx and after dat went and buy some stuff...damn funny larhs..clarence wans to buy tights for diving..den we ask him buy boardshorts...den in the end...i think jk lending him his...lolx...we walk suntec city den to marina square okies...some more is take bus from orchard larhs...in the end not worth it lorhs...the bus fare wasted...nvr buy anything in the end...

so was walking back thru city link den i bought 2 books from mph..need them to keep me occupied during relief teaching..haha...so ya..back here...

had a small argument with someone...BUT everything is olrite le...so cheer up ok..haha

ciaoz...go play need for speed liao

2008-04-03T14:16:00.002+08:00

HI!!! was going through my old phone cus selling it..and found these pics in the memory stick...so posted some for viewing lorhs...ENJOY!!

old pic sia...taken at somebody's house...lolx

ake 2006! eh lim u got short sideburn lehs...lolx

my half gim mo days..lolx

the kid i saw at jurong point toy"r"us...cute right..haha...dat was with jie and maine

erhemm....found this zi lian photo of ur on my phone..haha
maine and jie young de shi hou lehs...lolx

maine...for ur info horh...this is our onli photo together ok!! and its BACKVIEW!!!!!

yes...28/08/06 night time...my second camp feast troop...these kids are sec4 now...time flies..

2008-04-03T14:02:00.002+08:00

angel found this pic let me see....quite funny...so i thought share with u peeps...enjoy!!=)

2008-04-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

HI!!!

its past midnight...i knw..and i am sick...i knw..so i should be asleep...budden...not planning on taking any reliefing later anyway..no voice lorhs...ya

lets see...wad happened on wed...woke to the call from admiralty pri...needed me to relief 1unity AGAIN...lolx...this class..the teacher like nvr come all the time de lorhs...HOD somemore lorhs...tsk tsk tsk...anyway...this class ok larhs...but keep cher-ing one..lolx

den after skl..rushed to meet lim for dinner...cus she wans to be home for TV at 8pm..sheesh~

so ya...went home after dat...cousin came..so watched tv with her...realize channel 8 like to mention chang ying(fly) alot in its sequel...shou zhu 1 & 2 also have den now the 9pm show also have..lolx...si chang ying chou chang ying...haha..den we were playing with the "bubble" thingy..u knw the rubbery thing u attach to a small pipe den blow with ur mouth into a big big bubble den play with it de...if break jus close it with ur mouth that one? ya..i knw my describing sucks...but i tried ok...ya..haha..then went out buy offering for my uncle..ching ming ma...den bought mcflurry to eat...haha(YVONNE LIM...JEALOUS NOT!!who ask u wan watch TV)

dats about all le...blog again later tonight bah..haha..ciaoz!!

finding love...or has it found me...me love u lehs!

2008-04-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

harlow...back to blog..been few days since i blogged so gonna report of some stuff..haha

lets see...last fri..we celebrated shu man's birthday at my house...well not exactly fri larhs..its on sat at midnight..haha..played mahjong whole night..lolx..quite fun larhs...alot of jokes going around..

den den...erm...sat was the last ake prep...pop myself onto the assualt boat larhs...i mean like so many times seagull and whaler le..dis time jiu get abit of sun and sit assualt boat lorhs..need a tan ma...budden wierd lehs..nvr get sun burn..not pain de lorhs

den erm...sunday ar...sleep like whole dat lehs...quite tired lorhs...den in btw went out to pass something to maine...den come back..sleep again till dinner den go out eat...lolx...cant blame lehs...lack of sleep lehs...somemore...thurs night suppose to be sleeping one...budden someone called so talk lorhs...budden nvm larhs....most importantly..hope u feel better..

den monday...sian lorhs...like nth to do lehs...no relief teaching also..so went out and cycle whole day liao...installed a back seat..and clean up some problems with the mud guard...den adjust the brakes...dats all lorhs...didnt felt like going home...budden no one pei also larhs...lucky shu man called and ask me go down PS...celebrate her birthday AGAIN with reagen and chunfu...ya...

den today ar...also slack whole day..den oliver called about my gold cert...so i pia finish le...chiong down PHS to get mr ng to sign...jus nice..he walked out of skl saying he is going HQ...jus nice sia..so went with him larhs...submit to oliver den he ask me to get ready to get the cert nxt week and when i come down to get it..spray my hair blacker...i was like diao..so dark he also can see ar...oh yah..for ur information..i dyed my hair again...but its dark brown so quite hard to see larhs...ya..haha

den come home jiu eat dinner lorhs..and nth much liao..maybe going mstd august de bah..ya...den erm...settled by blog songs...created a playlist jus for ur...hope ur like it..mostly chinese songs larhs...but got 2 is english one...ENJOY!

dats all ciaoz!!

wo ai ni!!

2008-03-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

harlow...back to blog...now in skl...but got break...lolx..tapping the skl wireless for free...is BAD!!haha..but...WADEVA larhs...haha

anyway...been realli bored...ystd during recess...the three self proclaimed "princesses" crowd around me again..kelly was sick so didnt came skl...sort of missed her lame questions like.."laoshi when u gonna get a gf ar?"haha..

after skl went home bath den met family for dinner...by the time i reached they already started lorhs...lolx...so ya..had sharkfin and crab...been having lots of sharkfin recently...dunno why..my aunty strike lottery again ma...

so ya...after dat went home see my aunt pack and den sent her to the airport...had tiramisu latte at coffee club ...it had masala wine inside...quite wierd...but tasted ok..haha

so ya went home and continue my rainbow six vegas 2...nice game!haha

so ya today overslept...woke at 10++ rushed and came skl for "AVA" duty...den in the end no one ard sia...sian diao...den the skl today got vendor come sell thumb drive and memory card this kinda stuff...all the it stuffs..think is the same stall at foodcourt 2 everytime selling one...cus the sign board same larhs...haha

den went and fetch my class for three periods of chinese..den now got break le..for three periods..den after dat 2 periods of chinese..and i am FREE!!..sheeeettttt!! money so damn easy to earn sia..haha..65bucks for altogether 2.5hrs of lesson today...den rest is free time..haha

so now blogging lor...and checking all my links in the blog one by one...some old le..not working le...some change link le..and so on..haha..jus realize nearly half my links are all KIA-ed..haha..damn wad sia..haha

ok larhs dats all for now..maybe tonight blog again...maybe not...

BYE!!

when i see u...my life brightens up dat much abit..=))

2008-03-25T13:12:00.002+08:00

okok...after constant bothering..i decided to try and revive this blog alittle..haha
so lets see...lots of things happen after my last blog...exams finished...sort of graduated from poly...so now working as a relief teacher in admiralty pri..

days as a relief teacher is well...great?haha..the kids are nice...and the teachers and staff guided me along..got some loyal fans dat greet me and brighten up my day whenever i go for work...even got to know a neighbour who is my student..haha

hmm...been trying to fill my life so as not to be so bored everyday...working, play mahjong, movies, sports, ake, and basically catching up with friens...and also very impt...chiong XBOX360...bought a few games recently...been playing it...real great...

ake beens realli crappy...people doing unneeded stuff and cause some trouble...budden who cares..i go ake jus bcos i wan to be with people i knw wad...at least most of my friens are there...so ya...have fun and fk the stupid stuffs...

hmm...and also somehow jus started to contact charmaine again...and ya...along also came her sis and cousin and some of her friens...been great seeing them after so long..lolx...did some catching up and went for movie or two..

and ya...birthday jus pass by 23 days...thx for the presents peeps...and also for celebrating with me..the swensens dinner and the billabong shirt and wallet from animal friens...even though it was my treat..lolx...and also maine for the baby taz and leejie for the card...

so ya...think its a long enough post bah...will try to post more in the future larh ok?

upcoming events include mahjong on fri and ake on sat...and ya..tml is joyce's birthday...happy 15 ok?haha

想听的话得不到回答，我却还在独自装傻..hey..do u knw what i am trying to do?long to hear those words from u again u knw...

2007-11-13T11:29:00.000+08:00

harlow!back to blog=)ystd was realli sad...budden...looking back..my fault larhs...expecting too much i guess....haish...

nth much actualli..these few days jus busy doing my FYP and revising for MST..sian larhs..annual camp dun think can attend much also..at most book in book out...budden good also larhs...at least to me i guess...wont think so much=(

sian larhs...sick of this life...like so sian lorhs...everyday go home after skl and nth else...sian de larhs...

i wan to escape from this world=)

2007-11-09T09:54:00.000+08:00

harlow guys!!

back from endau-rompin adventure trg...fun trip i guess. its a trip being evaluated to take over mt ophir. honoured to be the first sea clt to go there...lets see...quite interesting bah...first day was a bus ride up to the town of kahang then a 4wd ride to the national education research centre in endau rompin. realized its part of taman negara actualli.haha...den we had rafting activities buts its for beginners de larhs...no rapid...NO FUN DE LARHS!!!-.-''haha...

trekked back to the dormitories after dat along the way stopped by at a orang asli village to watch the demostration of the various animal trap.den rest for the night..the dinner super irritating, the insects attracted to the light den rest on it and get burned. in the end dropped into our dinner...-.-''haha so was not realli filling bah.

morning was a boat ride to the camp side. met up wif warrant dennis over there. after lunched we went trekking into the jungle. a few of the cadets got leeches and helped remove them. haha.. trekked to a waterfall den to a lake where the water was blue, some of the cadets swam, i jus sat there in a trance. dunno why larhs...some one should knw...lolx...den trekked back to the campsite for dinner. den had night walk...damn dark larhs...couldnt see the front at all...den at night i slept wif the medic in the chalet...haha..this is call resourceful larhs...haha...

last day was a boat ride back to NERC den the reverse of the trip lorhs...go back to singapore...

haish back in this concrete jungle again..but somehow, i wish i nvr came back? its a saddening place. when u lost the needle in ur love compass, it aint a great feeling, didnt cherish u is my fault but putting the blame all on me is not fair either. ok nth much to blog le...

i hate this world
wanting to start afresh somewhere else
somewhere where noone knows me
mus learn to be alone again=)

2007-10-21T18:42:00.000+08:00

back to blog...been realli busy...with my fyp work and such...

lets see...today woke up...got dad to drive me down to SSDC and register for my driving liscence...taking class3 liscence=)) manual car..haha...looking forward to my first lesson nxt tues going to pia basic theory lesson 1 and 2 in one day... ya...anyway...tml the indian god lookin at my project...pray very hard dat it will work!! arghh...den wed will be my airforce medical...hope i will get pesA or B..pls god!anyway...thurs will be the big day...the upper heads will be viewing my projects...and fri going hq to draw my no.2 uniform...sorry dat i wont be able to help out on fri for the aerospace thing...

upcoming sunday maybe got expedition...bt see first lorhs...my junior haven confirm wif me...

darlin...i love u...waiting for the day dat u will realli be mine=))

should i go for annual camp??
lookin at fri..i felt like their looks were so cold...
maybe its right...i should jus disappear...

2007-10-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

harlow...back to blog agn...haha...dunno why decide to start to blog agn...today nth much bah...didnt do much...lots of things happened but i tend to keep to myself now more??ya..

2007-08-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

harlow guys!! back to blog after a long long long time...haha..dunno why..maybe cus a bit high after exam bah..haha.. ya.anyway...bought a modified xbox360..like..YAY!!haha...so today was ultra bored so decided to go amk central to hunt for so "modified" 360 games..haha..i wont say the word pirated!! cause its not..haha..so hunt le about 1 hours liao..still cant find den was like damn sian diao la...but..

GUESS WAD...as i was walking back to amk hub...i say the auntie opening store..and all the folders were like lying there larh!!..so i went and found the correct folder and started to indulge myself...so i bought 3 games..which cost me $48..which is roughly the price of one normal game..haha..lucky me!!

so finish liao...i was happily walking into amk hub and going to walk the underpass to mrt station..but...mr murphy stuck me...i saw chan wai ping at the escalator alone..she saw me and was like dragging me by my hand asking me to pei her till her friens arrive..there goes my plan!!..arghh...anyway...zx and brennan saw us...and i was like asking them to come help me..and they walked off!!!ur 2 good ar..nvm..so ya..i pei-ed her talk lorhs..bo bian..so awhile her frien come liao..and i was freed...haha...went home...and gamed!!shiok man... GRAW2 rox!!..haha.. so now..super bored and came here to blog lorhs...hey not saying GRAW2 is boring but...cant play too long also ma..haha...

anyway...enuff breaks...time to go and chiong and be a ghost again..haha..

"we are the GHOSTS, we strike in the shadows where u least expect us to"

2007-07-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

i have nth to blog cause of my boring life...but anyway...

jus came here to say...

ILOVEHER!!!!!!!!

2007-07-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

i am sick of so many things in ncc...lost the motivation...lost the aim...lost the feeling...

i am so not into going back to PHS anymore...i jus lost the feeling...but i still go back...why?? i dunno...maybe because of sometimes left undone makes me feel uneasy...i can say wad i wan to say..but will the new specs listen?? i dunno...this i dunno...will they make the steps and go that extra mile dat they say their seniors didnt go for them...will they repeat the mistakes??? will they teach the juniors wad they say the seniors withheld from them?? i dunno...but i seriously hope i do...because if not...den its truly too late...it will fall...

anyway...i hate being middle man...shot at from both side..being a S/CLT is so cham..being the senior clt in the unit..HQ tok to UNIT thru me...den UNIT tok to HQ thru me...so in the end conflict how?? i kena shot to pieces...jus like today...wads the point...why take this shit?? sick of hearing "eugene, why phs like this", "eugene, wad ur CO doing", "eugene, where are ur PHS people", "eugene, how come HQ do things so wierd", "eugene, wad is HQ trying to do ar", eugene this eugene that...i not commandant lehs...i not district commander lehs...neither am i CO PHS NCC lehs...so how the hell i know why both side do things like dat..u wan to knw why...cause i S/CLT EUGENE CHAN ma...so expected to knw somehow or another...expected larhs...

so how?? give up no give up??

bb all...

suan le dis is all...

2007-06-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

dunno why suddenly i wanna post this but

I LOVE HER ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

harlow...haha..back to blog...well...sat had the ncc day parade reharsal...so went down supposedly to do one stuff onli...but in the end...end up doing LOTS of stuff...amazing how cadets nowsaday fall like flies after a few hours in the sun...so ya..settled stuff and made some arrangements...not very happy...

meet herrick, junhao and eric at herrick's house to slack first before going down the carina's party...overall...soso larhs..nth much also...haha...

sun was so call sea clt meeting larhs...haha...meet lim fennie jingkai and clarence first at khatib b4 going down to town to meet the rest...walked around plaza sing, ate LJS den watch hot fuzz...not bad larhs...typical "jamebond" movie without the sex...the show quite nice...haha...oh ya, me and johnny completed ghost squad...haha...not bad...den we walked to meriden hotel there i think...and ate at the food court...haha...

monday...first day to chiong ARF1...so studied alot and i mean alot.. brought grandma to khatib to meet mum see doc...saw eileen and lenice along the way...so asked jingyi mei where is she..lolx...after dat i walked all the way to yishun POSB bank to change my bank book...lolx...

so today had the ARF1 paper...not bad larhs..quite easy....after dat came home study for AIS1 now..haha..jus now had a nap...qute refresh now...haha

dats about all larhs...bye guys...

2007-06-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

right...back to post after so so long...ya..last week was ake so mon to thurs burn liao...lame thing is i onli went into the sea for 1day nia...de rest was spend slacking on land...not exactly my idea of a great AKE...ya...but it raining everyday..pity thos partCs and coxswain in the water kayaking..at least boat crew got limited cover..haha...like jk say..we zeng our own boat..haha..

ya den fri when back to skl..had a meeting...decided on the PCB thingy...den ya...went off early cause leg pain la...morning slipped and fell..haha..den sat and sun...slacked...sun went eat pepper lunch for dinner..celebrate father's day..den book in camp for spec course le..

my first OIC...some success some failure...had a looming vision of wad will happen...in the end it really happen..so ya..maybe i aint cut out for it...so ya...the good news is...it was success in a sense dat the tests were all completed...and the objective of the camp were met...so ya..many thx to all the clts who made it possible..2IC yvonne chia who worked hard to back me up in everything and staying behind when others left... my 2 beloved OCs yvonne lim and chin woo...for taking care of my two coys...the 18 PCs,APCs,AIs for imparting ur knowledge selflessly to the cadets and testing them to the with the upmost quality..with special note to xinren for coordinating the testers for me..to my RSM jin chuan for disciplining the cadets and upholding the morale with ur booming voice and encouragments...to the admin and logs department for settling all the shit and scores and bedsheets and pillow case and blanket and nominal roll and constantly hollering from 3sg lawrence...haha..so lots and lots of thx to u all...also last but not least...3sg lawrence for helping me do lots and lots and mountains of stuff...ya...

ya..basically thats all bah...bb all

lover her for who she is..
this is smth i hav to learn eventually..
jus hope dat i can do dat b4 NS..

love u babe

2007-06-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

today...well...morning slack around lorhs...ya...den meet shuman to pass her the land module notes

den cycle down to sembawang to pass maine her notes also...den cause she on the phone ma...den like crying like...so i jiu left early le...hey mei ar...dun sad kaes...cheer up horhs!!=))

ya...den i cycled to the beautiful spot dat i found last year while cycling...actualli is jus the dam at lower seletar...ya...cycled there...den sat down on the rocks...looking at people fishing...wakeboarding den the vehicles passin behind me...quite peacful actualli if not for the vehicles...thought about lots of things...ya...made some decisions...and hopefully can stick by them...

cycled home..read my book and had dinner...so here i am now...blogging.

came to the conclusion: i treat u nice and u return me with shit..so fine...i dun see the point in treating u nice anymore...fk off babe.

2007-06-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

haish...damn sad now la....she jus dunno my heart lorhs...i said if dun wan talk jiu sua... bb...she realli jus say bb and go...like...wth mans....wadeva la...i can even predict her ans when she see this..i got nth to say ma...haish...is been dragging so long la...and i hav been waiting lorhs...like...i took the step liao...isnt it time u take urs...if ur not interested...do tell me soon...

2007-05-30T20:01:00.000+08:00

back to post...jus came back from pulau tekong...Sp visit there for some year 3s...unfortunately...cant get myself excused at all...haha..been there 2 times liao...still mus go...sian mans...haha...anyway...took the firstcraft over...it was realli realli veri fast...cus i read awhile nia jiu reach liao...den went to the auditorium for some talk by some officers...yes..i wan go OCS...haha...somehow...i hope..den broke into groups for some tour...first stop BMTC skl 1 Apache and Bronco company...visit their bunks and the small hall in btw for a talk on the kits issued by SAF to new RECs...den went IMT range...listen to the 3Sg talk shit about the rifle and how to shoot...den it was free for us to try liao...i was loading and reloading the rifles for my classmates cus they didnt know how to or forget liao...haha...but somehow i knw...muhahha...den went to visit some lame stuff like intro to field rations and also see mock battle...haha...den SOC demo...ya..dats about all..came home via fastcraft, bus to expo, train to admiralty...was thinking of going PHS find the rest of the clts...but think they out for the recce so didnt go in the end...reach home at 7pm plus...ya...haha..

oh yah...in the morning helped out at victors lab...had a buffet breakfast at the convention hall den brought the sec students back to T1722...showed them RC flying on the comp and flight simulator...den had a chat with some of the students...in particular the four chankat(dunno how to spell also) changi girls(dunno their names)...quite lame..showed them my airport project...how it works and so on...and one of them is pretty olrite...haha...but dun think will see them ever again..no exchange contacts and even if she come SP...i also gone liao...ok to make this clear...the pretty one is already 17..so dun say xmm or wadsoeva shit i tell u all..haha...anyway..dats about all...so bye~

post another day again

how the fuck u wan me to survive all this shit...

2007-05-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

Would You Be There-Redwan Ali

if i were blue, would you be there for me,
and whisper in my ears thats okay,
would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
and say you love me one more time.

if i feel good, would you slow dance with me,
and touch my lips with tender love and care
would you die for me, would you run with me,
and never look back.

would you be there to love,to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?

would you be there to love,to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?
would you be there?

if i'm away, would you still think of me,
and wish that you could hold me now.hold me now~
would you die for me, would you run with me,
all the way.

would you be there to love,to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?

would you be there to save my soul tonight?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away?
would you be there, for me?

finally found this songs original version...unfortunatly its it flv format...anybody got any idea to change it to mp3 or wma format?? pls do tell me..haha...ya..

its dedicated for that lovely girl i love out there...u know who u are darlin...muackz

2007-05-27T10:18:00.000+08:00

Never Let You Go

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same,
everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left your mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know, I'd never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can't, believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

Tho I told myself won't hold my breatha part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know, I'd never let you go

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know, I'd never let you go

jus wanna say i love you alot...jus give me this chance...and hope to be together forever

2007-05-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

harlow...e learning week now...so no skl...but studying at home still...haha...lets see monday i was in skl to do project la...actualli nth much to do also...cus mr lim budget haven come....so tues went back for my AIS project...did something on fokker 50's instrument...den ystd went to skl in the afternoon to do some stuff...den came home...was not a good experience i guess...in the evening went find someone to tok...cant say whu...haha...but thanks alot...guess ur laughter affect others easily..haha...ya...den help shiying jie jie moved her hse to her new rented room...and i got back room after that...den shifted things and got things all settled down at 1am i guess...so slept till around 10.40am like dat and woke up...haha...damn shiok man...ok now back to doing elearning liao...bye!

ps: i love u but do u love me so??hope things between us will get better and better..

when guys cry...its not fake..jus so u knw...it hurt my heart when u said dat...

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have

2007-05-18T18:58:00.000+08:00

haish...turmoil la this few days...its just like getting thrown into a washing machine and tumbled around....stop leading me on if u dun mean wad u said at all...i tried to believe u...but u nvr fail to amaze me with new hurts..haish..i jus dunno how to carry on life...reading ur blog jus pains me more...i jus cant take this shit anymore la...i hope things will be better...if not...dun blame me...

and dun think i dunno where u go in sembawang...other then ur dat frien's house...i am not stupid...if u say u dun care anymore...den why go?? if u dun care den why izit ur entries end all with him...i jus dunno if its a lie or wad when u say u dun care anymore...all i knw is dat u told me u choose me to him...i dun knws wads on ur mind..i jus cant stop my mind from thinking about it and tearing my heart even more then it already is...i can jus feel the pain right now as i am writing all this...

wad did i do to get all this?? jus why do i deserve all this...ur ruining my life...i can concentrate on anything dat i do ok...ur filling my minds with all this shit problems...

forget it...fuck all this man..

2007-05-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

2007-05-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

deleted my post away ystd cus i knw dat its pointless anymore...no point in saying all those things when its not gonna change anything...so..ya...thats all...

mugging for ppcdl theory tml...MUS PASS AR!!! i wan my liscence to kill...eh sorry is liscence to drive boat...ok i am lame...tyty..bb

tears dropped till3am this morning in bed..

Like A Rose by A1 enjoy!!
AND AS I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES
I SEE AN ANGEL IN DISGUISE
SENT FROM GOD ABOVE
FOR ME TO LOVE
TO HOLD AND IDOLISE

AND AS I HOLD YOUR BODY NEAR
I'LL SEE THIS MONTH THROUGH TO A YEAR
AND THEN FOREVER ON
TIL LIFE IS GONE
I'LL KEEP YOUR LOVING NEAR

AND NOW I'VE FINALLY FOUND MY WAY
TO LEAD ME DOWN THIS LONELY ROAD
ALL I HAVE TO DO
IS FOLLOW YOU
TO LIGHTEN OFF MY LOAD

YOU TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE
YOU GIVE ME ROOM TO GROW
YOU SHONE THE LIGHT OF LOVE ON ME
AND GAVE ME AIR SO I CAN BREATHE
YOU OPEN DOORS THAT CLOSE
IN A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING GOES
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
JUST LIKE A ROSE

AND WHEN I FEEL LIKE HOPE IS GONE
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH TO CARRY ON
EACH TIME I LOOK AT YOU
THERE'S SOMETHING NEW
TO KEEP OUR LOVING STRONG

I HEAR YOU WHISPER IN MY EAR
ALL OF THE WORDS I LONG TO HEAR
OF HOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE
HERE NEXT TO ME
TO WIPE AWAY MY TEARS

AND NOW I'VE FINALLY FOUND MY WAY
TO LEAD ME DOWN THIS LONELY ROAD
ALL I HAVE TO DO
IS FOLLOW YOU
TO LIGHTEN OFF MY LOAD

YOU TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE
YOU GIVE ME ROOM TO GROW
YOU SHONE THE LIGHT OF LOVE ON ME
AND GAVE ME AIR SO I CAN BREATHE
YOU OPENED DOORS I CLOSED
IN A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING GOES
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
WITHIN THIS BED OF EARTH
JUST LIKE A ROSE

AND THOUGH THE SEASONS CHANGE
OUR LOVE REMAINS THE SAME
YOU FACE THE THUNDER
WHEN THE SUNSHINE TURNS TO RAIN
JUST LIKE A ROSE

YOU TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE
YOU GIVE ME ROOM TO GROW
YOU SHONE THE LIGHT OF LOVE ON ME
AND GAVE ME AIR SO I CAN BREATHE
YOU OPENED DOORS I CLOSED
IN A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING GOES
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
WITHIN THIS BED OF EARTH
JUST LIKE A ROSE

YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
WITHIN THIS BED OF EARTH
JUST LIKE A ROSE

2007-05-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

guess wad...i jus exploded..couldnt take it no more...the fuse line jus simply ran out..and the explosive packed in me jus blew...gave him one tight slap and turn the whole house upside down...till now...the lights are still on in their rooms...but who cares...i took it for 13 years...why cant they...

first time it ever happened...each of us got one bottle of orange julius...he couldnt take it and drank his all up...for me...i controlled...so dat after dinner...i can enjoy myself the drink..but when he saw the bottle...he wanted to drink mine as well...so he threw this tantrum...i didnt give...so my father scolded me and ask me to give...but shouted back no.. and ran to the room...in the end..i got caned...the hatred grow from there...why??why izit dat i did wrong when all i did was defend my rights to my own drink...i had asked for nth else but to enjoy my own drink...

pri4..i lost my wallet...with my student pass and a few dollars...wad i got from my mum?? a lashing that shocked the neighbours...

sec1,sec4 that kid in the house living with me..lost a nokia 6610 and den a nokia n73...wad he got?? was jus a scolding...

pri6..i got 232 for my PSLE...she gave me a black face and scolded me for dat..

pri6 he got 229 for his PSLE...she smiled...

exam periods in sec skl..9pm...she would come in and nag and nag for me to go to sleep..whack me if i dun do my work...

exam periods for him...11.30pm he comes home and she sleeps on...got problems in skl...scold onli...

he got problems with his hair...teacher call parents...become call me...i cover for him...and wad i got...shit from him...

he wanted a crumpler back for himself...gave him a $100 for his christmas and $50 for his birthday...so dat he can buy it... and wad i got?? nth... not even a sweet for either...

wad did i do to deserve to be call wadeva he called me or she called me???

nvr did made her expectation...

dad say i clever...so i look down on my brother...no...is he dun wan study...stay out late and dun come home...go and have fun...

wad have i done to deserve all the shit...

so wad if u said sorry...can ur sorry undo the hatred in me dat started 13 years ago on that faithful night....

haish forget it...i dun belong here...not in this house...actualli...i dun belong anywhere...i am just a social misfit...i should jus disappear...

boy wont dat make alot of people so damn happy about it=)

2007-05-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

u may not care...u may not even see this blog anymore...i dun realli care anymore...cus despite wad u said...i cant find the reason to believe in wad u said anymore...heart is broken...neglected and thrown apart..friens we are...dats wad u said...i dun think we can even be friens anymore after this...i give up already...trying to be there for u...fulfilling ur demands...cus i cant do it anymore...i am moving on...good bye

tears streaming down my face
broken up inside
but i am still expected to be strong...in front of all the rest...this stress will never be greater...
the nxt time i see u...i hav to bear in mind the pain u gave...but yet...i cant show it...

2007-05-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

back to blog...hasnt been a good week i guess...MON went to run a full round ard SP...guess after dat didnt wait for the sweat to dry and entered the gym...in the end...end up with a virus infection...was still ok on tues morning and early afternoon...but after getting back from yan shuang's birthday lunch...i was so tired so went to sleep..and when i woke up...wasnt feeling all that good...took 3 mouth of the pork chop and one egg yolk and cant eat anymore...so went bath...after dat...coming out dat time..didnt feel all so good so rush back to the toilet jus in time to vomit everything out...couldnt take it man...den went and lie down...den went out of contorl...shivering under the blanket...call my mum on my phone and she brought another blanket from the other room...and verified dat i have a fever..so took me to the night doc over at the admiratly mrt station...waited for a bloody long hour..and the doc say i hav a SLIGHT virus infection..i was like WTH!! Slight virus infection doesnt cause serious vomitting, fever and uncontrollable shivering!!! anyway...paid $32 for a batch of flu pills and paracetomals...i was like...diao...wad a blood sucking doc...lolx...anyway the nxt day rest at home...had cold spells till afternoon when it stopped...

so went and catch spiderman3 after all..haha...nice show...

today...was spend wasting my life away..and studying for my thoery nxt week...i wan my PPCDL la..haha

ps:thx to those whu showed concern over my sickness..thx to dat someone whu offered to buy my lunch ystd...thou i didnt need it in the end...and no thx to the other someone whu didnt even bother to care at all...bye

2007-04-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

harlow..back to blog...jus came home from lim's birthday dinner...ya had fun...shall elaborate later..haha...

well over the weekend had mini-ex...the good news is all PHS cadets made it through...so..congrats to all the inter1s..a great job done on sat for chunkiat,fatin,waiping,sirbest,zhengxuan,xitong,jonathan and on sun for charles and julia..now ur last stage will be AKE...jiayou!!
well other den the good news..there is also sad part...it didnt run as smoothly as it was suppose to i guess...sun afternoon had storm den during it..somethings came up.....well i still feel dat 2lt huang did a good job...i said my part...lets jus see wad happen in AKE lorhs...haish

ya...den monday...damn shack la...after skl wanted to go gym de..but scared later i run on the threadmill will run till fall...so nvr go liao...went home rest...ya..den tues skl as usual and went gym after dat...today skl at 10pm..so can wake up late lorhs...so shiok..haha...went skl...den gems dat time lame la..lolx...den got dat FYP talk den after dat go victor's lab awhile jiu go meet lim they all liao...haha

well..i met jing kai and fennie first den went to get lim's present...settled on a nalgene bottle in the end..haha...den aaron and kenny joined us...buy liao jiu go downstairs meet the rest liao...
lolx..had pizza den a surprise cake for lim..haha...in the end after eating..lim got some on her face...courtesy of faizal...i got from xr and faizal...den in the end chin woo kena the entire plate on his face...haha...den xr himself got it...and finally lim threw a handful at clarence..haha...so its like we all got coffee cream smell la...till now after washing with soap i still have the cream smell on my hand..haha..

anyway dats all le...nth much to say...BB

PS:iloveyou!!hopeucanbemineforever!!

2007-04-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

OMG I FOUND MY PPCDL LESSON CERT!!!!!YES!!!!!!!!!!hahaha

YES!!!HAHAH!!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHA!!!

for those whu dunno.."PPCDL" stands for power pleasure craft driving liscene

2007-04-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

harlow...back to blog...these few days quite busy i guess...haha...wed after gems went straight to HQ to find ma'am esther...cus wanted to see if she hav a copy of my promotion form..but sadly she dun..so suan le...ya...den went for the poly ncc meetings...after dat on thurs morning went help launched the boat with clarence and chin woo...clarence told us to meet at 8.00am den in the end came at 8.45am...den still say wad he say 8.30 not 8.00...so wad??8.30 still late wad..diao..he still can say lorhs...aiya not9.00 yet...make no sense??lolx...i launched whaler...the lousy OBM cant even change gear in motion lorhs... den i coming in to dock ma...so cant stop cus when i put to reverse...the OBM died...den shouted at clarence to help me stop the bow...budden instead of helping...he went and do something else with his boat!!!!!!!!!!!!

anway after dat went eat new york new york at AMK hub...the yankee burger damn big larh!!...haha...scary sia...haha...budden chin woo went skl..den clarence went work...so i alone lorhs...den walking around and went to the cinema...saw meet the robinson got show...so bought the ticket went in and watch liao..since got so 2hrs b4 i need to go PHS...den as i watch...den i realize dat there is onli me myself and I in the entire cinema larhs...lolx..so damn shiok..haha...
after dat go phs for trg...i walked from AMK hub all the way done to PHS...lolx...den after dat...went cwp...to buy gloves and somethings for ake..saw jingkai and fennie and waiping...den as i was walking on the second floor..i saw lim..with someone...i dunno whu..cus didnt get a good look..haha...ya bought my things and went home liao...today morning woke up late den 9++ den reach skl..pass xin ren my books and den went for my own lesson liao...haha...after skl eat lunch and stayed in skl for awhile for a short meeting...den now at home rotting lorhs...nth to do de...sian...haha

i dunno wads wrong...
i am loving u deeply..so so much...

2007-04-17T13:56:00.000+08:00

harlow...i am back after alot of months to blog somethings? and that onli after waiping kindly offered to change my blogskin... cus well...i was lazy to do it and since i dun change my blog is as good as dead so i dun bother to post lorhs...haha...school started ystd...with the ultra boring first day of skl behind me...i am much more relax...cus first day...all go lesson half and hour and come out rot liao..cus no book no nth..and with this years copyright rule...even worst...no books till may at least...haish...and now...suppose to 8-5 day..budden lesson cancel from 1-3...so now rotting lors...damn sian...so go back to T1722(my "home" for the past 2 months) and use comp since the nxt lesson is at T1722 also..haha...these few days abit sad and pissed easily...problem at home...haish...if ur wan quarrel jiu do it la...i dun care liao...cus its like...i better not do anything also...cus if i go in it will jus get worst...i also dun wan to be asked the question...u knw wad is my ans...it will jus be silence...

so wad if i am 19...
does it mean 19 can see a family spilt?

ok nth else to blog liao...BB

i love you...sorry if i appear fustrated these few days...

2007-04-16T11:52:00.000+08:00

hahas. since ie did this, might as well post.
credit myself eu knw. well, ie hope this blog will live aft ie did this make over.
couldnt stand the last skin cos all ie can navigate to is posts. like errs? hellos?
owells, new tagb toos, cos ie dunno how use flooble, & ie think its sucky.

ie knw this is nice.
thanks. at least he's nort being picky.
lols.

im off.
wish eu guys luck in seeing some posts.
thou ie doubt it.

cheers kiddos.
waiping:D

2007-02-23T10:17:00.000+08:00

harlow...haha...due to popular i am back to revive my blog...haha...anyway...kinda busy these few days...HQ stuffs, Skl stuffs, andwell..personal life larhs...haha...lets...NCC(Sea)Council member: manpower advisor...OIC Ncc(sea) spec course...and AKE sea party 2IC...stress larhs...need to go do many stuffs... den skl got itp cum fyp..haha...anyway...later got bookin in for AKE liao..haha...tonite will be party night man...VODKA and orange...haha...i bring cooler box man...den tml put ice and drinks inside...haha...anyway...these fews days abit low lorhs...dunno why...maybe cus of things lorhs...den easy angry...damn sian larhs..wan high also cannot...oh yah....did i say?? i highlighted my hair...muhaha....go ncc spray black like shit...haha...bt ystd got wu long...haha...the spray finished! then my behind damn obvious...luckily nvr kena anything...haha...dunno why u say i not sincere enuff sia...wad do i hav to do to prove to u??working hard!

yuan lai zui teng tong de biao qing jing shi mei you qing shu...

PS:ILOVEYOU <3

2007-01-09T19:16:00.000+08:00

yoz... back to blog after so long!!!...in btw got clt course...i went as head logs...successful running of the camp i mus say...credits to s/clt syahir(camp OIC) and all the rest of the clts whu assist in the camp as instructors....den it was followed by hols....phs ncc(sea) annual camp...first camp dat i can relax...cus after all...senior liao ma..take a step back and rest liao...haha...ya...den xmas was so so lorhs...eve was spend home slacking..haha...den the actual day went out to a xmas party with my sec4 mates...haha...new year day...i was at homing having steamboat with family cus my cuzzie's birthday...den the next day went to vivocity lorhs...oh ya i forgot...i chionged the curse of the golden flower and deathnote 2 on xmas day..haha...2 movie in a day at vivo...haha...skl started liao...since ystd....and its busy busy....got HF factor report cum presentation...ASMP labtest, ASE labtest...Gems report cum presentation, RWP reports...wa...can die sia...haha...tml go jingyi's mum shop cut hair agn...cus hair long liao...den this sat got sec1 recruitment...go down see see lorhs...in no.4 cus i dun wan pin badges...haha...lazy me...dats about all la...ciaoz...happy days peeps...

recommended...bai se feng che and ju hua tai...its nice..haa

2006-11-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

harlow peeps...back to blog after so long been busy these few days i guess.....havin my mid semester test rite now...haha...anyway...jus got back from downtown east...dun ask why i am there...ohwell...i wont do something like dat ever agn....anyway...mon had MCT...think i shld be can pass la...then maths...also can pass lorhs...den today human factor...same also...notice i nvr say much?? cus i am not sure myself wether i can score well also...haha...anyway...these few days alot of things in my mind sia...some happy some sad...but i guess...i jus keep quiet lorhs...also no one to talk to...the one whom i always poured my hearts to...well she jus aint whu she used to be anymore...

anyway....tml will be ASMP paper den ASE on fri...2 last paper...mus jiayou!!! haha sat morning is Clt course briefing....will be attending...den sun go work....busy busy sia...haha..then nxt week skl starts agn le...wed afternoon have arms drill with the inter1s...

u say u dislike me....and that u find treating me as a friend difficult...when i ask u why...u cant say...wad u expect me to do sia....cant even change lorhs....u say u dun like me to suan u...i alrdy stop liao lorhs...so wad now??

hey peeps...if i tok bian tai...whack me kaes?? i dun wanna be bian tai la!!!!!!!!

2006-11-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

hihi...back to blog agn...today is the start of e-learning week...1 week no skl...stay at home "study"...lolx....anyway...today went back to skl fer a meeting with yuan hui on my future fyp project....sp international airport...lolx...den meet mr toh, mr peh and mr charkannti(dunno how to spell his name...so agar agar) for our fyp....confirmed le..me huang and syhair one grp...so ya...dat does it...lolx...then tml afternoon goig ktv with foong jie, mum and joesph...so excited...very long nvr see foong jie le...heard she getting married nxt year....foong jie...ni yao xing fu orhs.....haha....ok la nth to type le...bb!!

loving u always...

2006-10-31T07:12:00.000+08:00

OK jus a quick post...lolx...nth much to say realli...fri go skl as normal den in the evening went and meet maine jie and kai en to pass them somethings...ate dinner together and go home le..ya...den sat went to phs for the opening hse...found my sec1 photo...realized i went thru a major change during my 6 years in ncc....even my mum also shocked when i show her the pic...lolx...went back to work in the afternn... came home onli in the evening sia...damn tired lorhs...knocked out almost immediately i guess...if not...i also forget wad happened le...haha...sun went to work agn...Ray woke up late..so fer the first 50mins...me and david were rushing like no body's business sia...haha...type also cannot stop..ya..at nite rushed my RWP presentation sia...den now...finished the presentation le...i fumbled abit = ( sad sia...haiz...budden mr kenneth said i had very good technical knowledge...he said i shld be a army officer sia...lolx....budden bad news is dat feng yuan is in hospital and so we are one man down today...get well soon ya buddy...we will be waiting fer u to complete ur part.....

anyway dats all lorhs...nth to say le...bb...

nuer...dun so high liao..lolx...later u asthma again ar...lolx...daddie ai nuer la..lolx...

baobeix...wo ai ni

2006-10-23T11:27:00.000+08:00

Jing yi...i read ur tag liao...i am not say i will not befriend u ever agn....nor did i say i hav not accepted ur apology or neither do i hate u...so dun anyhow say ar....anyway....i would hav rather u have told me straight in the face....jus dat i didnt expected myself to find out out myself or dat u would do this....so kinda hard fer me to accept all in awhile olrite...

anyway...jus now worked and den went home sleep till 4plus jiu go sim lim square....send my brother's comp fer repair and buy my memory stick fer my psp...haha..anyway..had scissors curry rice fer dinner....for those whu dunno...the reason why they call it scissors is cus all the dish are used scissors cut de...ya....anyway nth to say le...buaiz....

i wonder if u hate me....

HAISH

2006-10-22T14:25:00.000+08:00

well deleted my previous post cus after clearing things up...its ok le...budden...found out something else...haish...do u nid to go to that extend?? i understand if u dun wan see me ever agn...but u shld hav told me straight in the face...i will jus leave quietly de...anyway...ystd went out after work..suppose to meet my nuer and maine at jurong point but in the end they waited at jurong mrt...so well...misunderstanding la...lolx..walked walked there lorhs...bought my billabong slippers and zippo lighter fuel....den i think jie bought a nail polish....haha...den we watched deathnote...maine watched agn after she watched it with dat girl on fri...budden its my treat so ya....OMG...L is so GAY la...and nuer say he looks like a frog...haha...Light's gf damn ugly la...haha...anyway...after dat jiu went home le...btw ystd was B day...haha...owell nth much to say le...bb

i cause nth but trouble, i understand if u cant talk to me agn...and if u live by the roadside ,its over then i am sure dat thats makes sense, i will go down with this ship, i wont put my hands up and surrender, there will be no white floor above my door.. i m in love...always will be...